I didn't know where else to go

[Bunni3]

Hi, I would like to ask for some advice but nobody close to me could help me , it was suggested to me that i go on here and maybe someone could give me some advice on how to cope, i was on instagram and a random page posted a video of a man r*ping a minor, me and my friends made a report to the police and report the account and the post was later deleted but i still can't get the screaming out of my head, as a victim of sexual assault this really hits a nerve for me , I've tried really hard to forget it and suppress it but it makes it only worse and idk how to cope with it ? I've tried asking friends family but they all weren't much help could anyone possibly give me some advice ?

[MeBeMary]

Hi Bunni,

Welcome to AfterSilence. I am very sorry for the your previous sexual assault and for viewing one online. It is amazing how brazen this man was, as Instagram is such a public place. I can't even imagine viewing such a thing. I am glad that you and your friends reported this and it was removed. I can understand how this would hit you. Did the police ever followup with you, or you them? I'm hoping your report was the lead they needed to fine this creep. 

Sadly, I know even if the police were able to apprehend this sicko, the trauma endured will mark her, like it has the rest of us. I know it is also difficult to unsee what you have seen. I wish I had a solution for you. The best I can say is think how you would have felt if someone tried to help stop you being hurt. You did a good thing by saying this is not right. I know if someone had tried speaking up for me, how grateful I would be that someone cared enough to. You cared more than enough and we can only hope that this jerk gets arrested and the girl is able to find help.

I am glad that you have found our site and decided to join. We are here for you and we support you. I wish you well in dealing with the struggles of this event and the things you endured in your past.

Mary

[8888]

Welcome @Bunni3 to After Silence.  I’m sorry for the trauma that brought you here and that you had to see such a disgusting video.  I’m happy you are here reaching out for support.  Good job taking this step in your healing process.  You are not alone and what happened to you wasn’t your fault.  Take your time exploring and post when you are ready.  If you have any questions feel free to message me. 

[marcyabadeer]

On 6/12/2020 at 3:08 AM, Bunni3 said:

Hi, I would like to ask for some advice but nobody close to me could help me , it was suggested to me that i go on here and maybe someone could give me some advice on how to cope, i was on instagram and a random page posted a video of a man r*ping a minor, me and my friends made a report to the police and report the account and the post was later deleted but i still can't get the screaming out of my head, as a victim of sexual assault this really hits a nerve for me , I've tried really hard to forget it and suppress it but it makes it only worse and idk how to cope with it ? I've tried asking friends family but they all weren't much help could anyone possibly give me some advice ?

Hello @Bunni3 and welcome to After Silence. I am so sorry you had to see such a traumatizing thing on a public, social media outlet. The horrible things I would see all the time on those platforms is why I have kept my distance for my own personal well being. Gosh, I can imagine seeing that must have been extremely triggering. I know it would have sent me into a spiral Is there a counselor or a therapist that you can talk to about this? I would imagine trying to ground yourself with pleasant things you enjoy can maybe take you out of the headspace where you are having "audio flashbacks". Maybe some music that you enjoy or makes you feel "happy"? Or a hobby that puts a smile on your face? I am so sorry you had to see this. Sending you support and I am here to talk if you need to.

Sitting with you

sam 🖤🌻

[missfrier]

On 6/12/2020 at 8:08 AM, Bunni3 said:

Hi, I would like to ask for some advice but nobody close to me could help me , it was suggested to me that i go on here and maybe someone could give me some advice on how to cope, i was on instagram and a random page posted a video of a man r*ping a minor, me and my friends made a report to the police and report the account and the post was later deleted but i still can't get the screaming out of my head, as a victim of sexual assault this really hits a nerve for me , I've tried really hard to forget it and suppress it but it makes it only worse and idk how to cope with it ? I've tried asking friends family but they all weren't much help could anyone possibly give me some advice ?

Dear bunni

I am sorry for all that you have been through.   You have been so brave in reaching out to us, please know that this is never easy!   We are all here for you and we want to support you.  You're not alone in your healing journey and are always welcome to lean on us for extra support.  You can post as much or as little as you like.  We are here to support you in the way you need.  I have found this community to be very helpful.  Everyone is so understanding and non-judgmental and I am hoping you feel the same way once you've gotten to know us a little.   

All my best,