Backto3

[Backto3]

I was given this site by my t and was not going to even look at it, but I was curious to see if there was anything I could read that would help me. I started to read the testimonials and the very first one I read mentioned the words "silent screams" and it nocked the breath right out of me! Years ago I wrote a poem titled  " silent screams" so I closed out the site but the feeling of someone feeling the same thing never left me. I have trust issues so it's taken me since April to write this now. I don't know what to expect....that's just it, I don't know what to expect. 

[MeBeMary]

Hi Backto3,

Welcome to AfterSilence. I am sorry you have reasons to be here, but I am glad you were recommended and after a little time decided to give it a try. The realizations that there are others that do relate can be very startling. I think you just happened to pick one thread that happened to trigger you and you hadn't expected it to. I won't say that never happens, but for many things we try to have tags on them to help you decide if a post might be ok to give a chance. There are many positives to be here, so I hope you decide to feel it out and see. Our members are beyond kind and you will receive support and understanding.

Feel free to take your time. It gets a little easier as you get comfortable with the site. Do know we are here for you and you are not alone. Wishing you many healing steps as you move forward on your path of healing.

Mary

 

[Poppy_]

Hi, @Backto3 - 

Welcome to After Silence! I am so proud of you for getting up the nerve to posting! I know how intimidating that first step is. My T was also the one that recommended me to this site and, like you, I was never going to join. After I got tired of her bringing it up, I finally joined. I was never going to post or get involved. But then someone posted something I related to and I finally felt like I should post... so I did. Since then, this site has been such a lifesaver for me! It's a truly wonderful and supportive community and I hope that you will feel at home here  

You are not alone in your healing journey! There is always support waiting here for you  I hope that as you look around and get familiar with the site, you will feel more comfortable posting. But, no rush  take your time and post when you're ready! We aren't going anywhere! 

Warmest welcome,
Poppy

[8888]

Welcome @Backto3 to After Silence.  I’m sorry for what brought you here but I’m happy you are here reaching out for support.  Good job taking this step in your healing process.  You are not alone and what happened to you wasn’t your fault.  Take your time exploring and post when you are ready.  If you have any questions feel free to message me. 

[marcyabadeer]

On 6/9/2020 at 9:23 AM, Backto3 said:

I was given this site by my t and was not going to even look at it, but I was curious to see if there was anything I could read that would help me. I started to read the testimonials and the very first one I read mentioned the words "silent screams" and it nocked the breath right out of me! Years ago I wrote a poem titled  " silent screams" so I closed out the site but the feeling of someone feeling the same thing never left me. I have trust issues so it's taken me since April to write this now. I don't know what to expect....that's just it, I don't know what to expect. 

Hello @Backto3 and welcome to After Silence. I am sorry you have reasons that bring you here, but we are glad you've found us. I didn't know what to expect the first time I signed up either- 10 years ago- but what I ended up finding was a supportive community where I made friends who actually understood some of the things I was feeling/ going through. It was a bit eye opening for my healing journey. I hope you are able to find some of the same support and comfort here that a lot of us members find and keep us coming back. Please know you are not alone and we are all here for you

sending support and sitting with you if okay?

sam 🖤🌻

[missfrier]

On 6/9/2020 at 2:23 PM, Backto3 said:

I was given this site by my t and was not going to even look at it, but I was curious to see if there was anything I could read that would help me. I started to read the testimonials and the very first one I read mentioned the words "silent screams" and it nocked the breath right out of me! Years ago I wrote a poem titled  " silent screams" so I closed out the site but the feeling of someone feeling the same thing never left me. I have trust issues so it's taken me since April to write this now. I don't know what to expect....that's just it, I don't know what to expect. 

Dear backto3

Welcome to After Silence!!

I'm sorry for what you have been through.  I find it is easier to talk on forums then out loud.  Being here has helped me so much, even from the first time I ever posted.  It is still helping me - I have so much support here and I know you will, as well.  Here at AS, we are like a big family and our members are kind and non-judgemental.

I am sending you lots of safe hugs! 

Take care!

[Backto3]

On 6/18/2020 at 11:00 AM, samantha2009 said:

Hello @Backto3 and welcome to After Silence. I am sorry you have reasons that bring you here, but we are glad you've found us. I didn't know what to expect the first time I signed up either- 10 years ago- but what I ended up finding was a supportive community where I made friends who actually understood some of the things I was feeling/ going through. It was a bit eye opening for my healing journey. I hope you are able to find some of the same support and comfort here that a lot of us members find and keep us coming back. Please know you are not alone and we are all here for you

sending support and sitting with you if okay?

sam 🖤🌻

Hello Sam, thank you for your warm welcome. I am trying to figure out how to get the hang of this post and respond board so I hope you get this message. 10 years here speaks volumes for the support you must receive. It does give me some hope. Thank you.

[Backto3]

On 6/20/2020 at 2:15 PM, missfrier said:

Dear backto3

Welcome to After Silence!!

I'm sorry for what you have been through.  I find it is easier to talk on forums then out loud.  Being here has helped me so much, even from the first time I ever posted.  It is still helping me - I have so much support here and I know you will, as well.  Here at AS, we are like a big family and our members are kind and non-judgemental.

I am sending you lots of safe hugs! 

Take care!

Thank you, this is my first time joining online and I don't do well with groups...trust issues, but because no one knows me or can see me I decided to take my T's advice and try it out. I'm hopeful aand appreciate all of the warm welcomes.

[missfrier]

7 hours ago, Backto3 said:

Thank you, this is my first time joining online and I don't do well with groups...trust issues, but because no one knows me or can see me I decided to take my T's advice and try it out. I'm hopeful aand appreciate all of the warm welcomes.

Awe get what you mean  I was same   every one here is really nice and very supportive u don't have to feel aLone here

[Backto3]

On 6/21/2020 at 6:14 PM, Backto3 said:

Hello Sam, thank you for your warm welcome. I am trying to figure out how to get the hang of this post and respond board so I hope you get this message. 10 years here speaks volumes for the support you must receive. It does give me some hope. Thank you.

Hello Sam, I wanted to respond to your offer to sitting with me. I didn't know what that meant at the time and now I would like to accept if you are still willing. I don't usually know how or just don't ask for this kind of help and could use some support. Please let me know what "sitting with you" means for you. Thank you for offering!