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[hidden_princess]

Hi all. 

My name is Brandi and I am a child abuse and sexual abuse survivor.  I am 17 years old and I am almost 1 and a half years free. I am a bit nervous to be starting this as ive never fully dealt with it. I have a son who is 3 months old (not from the sexual abuser) I was abused for about 4 years between 7th-10th grade. The middle of tenth grade I finally had proof for my mother as telling her a few times before did not seem to be enough. And I was moved in with my aunt it took almost 6 months for my abuser to move out into his own home and for me to be able to move back into my mothers home. In between all of this I was suffering from depression and anxiety and was very suicidal.  My abuser was my step dad who I had known for almost 12 years. He pretty much raised me as my father is nonexistent and has an alcohol problem. I guess I'm just looking for someone, anyone really who can relate instead of judging.. 

[patriciag]

Hi hidden- princess, welcome to AS, I am sorry for what you have gone through in the past. No one here is going to judge you. I understand what you are going through I was CSA from my father till the age of 10. This is a safe place, we are here for you. You are not alone here. I was a young mom too, 16.

[hidden_princess]

Thank you! that makes me feel better. I was 16 when I got pregnant, 17 when I had him. Its a tough thing

[Looking for Relief]

Hi hidden_princess

I can relate to you. I was sexually abused and I'm suffering greatly from it now. I'm also new to this site...

[phoenixxx]

Welcome hidden princess. I am so sorry for what you went through all those years. It must have been incredibly hard. I am sure you will find lots of support here - this is a non-judgmental environment. We are all here for each other. Congratulations on your baby boy. 

[lostgirl1120]

3 hours ago, hidden_princess said:

Hi all. 

My name is Brandi and I am a child abuse and sexual abuse survivor.  I am 17 years old and I am almost 1 and a half years free. I am a bit nervous to be starting this as ive never fully dealt with it. I have a son who is 3 months old (not from the sexual abuser) I was abused for about 4 years between 7th-10th grade. The middle of tenth grade I finally had proof for my mother as telling her a few times before did not seem to be enough. And I was moved in with my aunt it took almost 6 months for my abuser to move out into his own home and for me to be able to move back into my mothers home. In between all of this I was suffering from depression and anxiety and was very suicidal.  My abuser was my step dad who I had known for almost 12 years. He pretty much raised me as my father is nonexistent and has an alcohol problem. I guess I'm just looking for someone, anyone really who can relate instead of judging.. 

Hey hun. I'm a new comer as well. Just joined a few days ago actually. So far I have found this to be a very resourceful community. Secondly, I can completely relate to what you're going through mentally, emotionally & what you went through physically! You are not alone in any way! If you have some time you should read my blog & if you feel like we can relate, feel free to private message me. No one can go through what we go through alone. 

[reglois]

   

[Struggling88]

Hi, Brandi, and welcome!  Unfortunately, I can relate. I'm sorry for what happened to you. 

[Tannyluck]

Hi and welcome to AS! I hope you find our community informative/supportive. I wish you well on your healing journey.