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Samanthaxo
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of course!!
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Hi! I was trafficked for over a decade and just have finally found peace and a normal life again, I completely understand how you must feel and if you ever need to talk to anybody I'm always here
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Hi Lara. So nice to meet you, my name is Samantha Im new here as well but I'm always here if you need to talk about anything Hope you have a good day
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So glad you’re here! My messages are always open
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Pouring my heart out to what I've kept buried inside.
Samanthaxo commented on Samanthaxo's blog entry in Trauma from being Trafficked
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You’ve genuinely stole everything from me and I dont know how I am ever going to be able to get it back. Like, you literally brought me back to life only to tear me back down again. You honestly really enjoyed that fact that I was scared of you, it like lit you up inside everytime I would flinch or have to hold back my tears while driving us somewhere. I dont know how things got so tremendously bad with us in only four months time, it makes absolutely no sense at all. The way that I utterly believed in you actually disgusts me now and I pray to god every single night th
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I can still hear you screaming in my ear over the smallest things. You truly knew how to sell me a dream, but it soon became so clear to me that you Were nothing but a bum looking for your golden ticket The ticket unfortunately was me. I dont know how I ever felt those feelings for you that I once did. Now when I hear your voice or see your face, my heart drops and I just feel DISGUSTING All I ever strived to do was to make you proud of me and make sure I was always your number one in your life. I put all that bullshit before myself, lost myse
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I am here if you ever need to talk privately or anything or need any type of advice, my messages are always open to everyone! & I can completely relate to exactly what you are going through as well Much love
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Pouring my heart out to what I've kept buried inside.
Samanthaxo commented on Samanthaxo's blog entry in Trauma from being Trafficked
Wow thank you so much for this message and words to me I honestly only escaped in January, so I was confined to this horrible life since I was 16 and I'll be 28 next month. It's just crazy to think about, but yes I'm sure it will progressively get better, I start therapy again finally on Wednesday and hopefully that goes well. -
Thank you so much for your kind words!
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Pouring my heart out to what I've kept buried inside.
Samanthaxo posted a blog entry in Trauma from being Trafficked
I was targeted as a minor, I guess I was just an easy target. Broken child, broken family, broken life. I was bullied almost my whole teenage years so of course the first older man that tells me I can make 200$ an hour modeling and I'd travel out of the country, I was ready to just pack and go. Little did I know, I just signed my fate and my life away to sex traffickers. Imagine this, it took a whole decade for the FBI and homeland security to find and rescue me for my despair of a life I was living. But, ten years is way too long to just fly home to your family and snap back to the way you w -
This is me, Samantha Sex trafficking survivor. It still consumes my whole identity. I truly have no one to talk to about what I've been through and it just seems like it will always engulf my whole entire life. Even with my abuser in jail, I can still feel him inside my head all day and all night; I'm always going to feel like he took something from me that I can never get back. I'll never know peace of mind, I'll never know happiness. I'll always be looking for him hoping he doesn't escape jail and kills me or better yet just sends someone to do it for him. Sorry if that's too much to r