Ellie11

Thank you all so much for your kindness and for taking the time to reply! Reading your words made me feel a little less alone and a bit more understood, which means a lot right now. Thank you for the welcome and for the care you’ve shown. It really matters

Hello everyone, my name is Ellie, I’m 29 years old. I experienced sexual abuse when I was around 4–5 years old. I don’t remember it in a clear, linear way, but rather through fragments, bodily sensations, and very blurred images that, when they are triggered, unleash a kind of inner storm. In those moments it feels as if I am back there again: I feel like a very small child who just wants to hide, to disappear. Right now I fluctuate a lot. There are moments when I try to deny or minimize what happened, throwing myself into activities or trying to “function,” and others when I feel co