ShyUnicorn

I’m proud of you so thoroughly documenting your behavior patterns and for being able to recognize where you are in the cycle. Speaking from experience, it can be so difficult to accomplish that in the moment. I realize that does not make anything less painful, however, it is a clear sign of progress. Healing can’t happen without self-awareness. Your awareness of the stages in this cycle is critical and you are doing it! When you have disengaged from the cycle, take time to recover, to eat and to be gentle with yourself. You deserve that and so much more. Here for you @rabbitp

@masongator you are very welcome. Those words still mean so much to me. If I could go back and yell them at several people in my life, it would bring so much closure. Instead, I am content just imagining it. Thank you for continuing your journey and sharing your thoughts here. I am so impressed by your inner strength and proud of you for just being yourself.

Hi @Megan.Zero I’m a little late but I would still like to extend a heart-felt welcome. I’m sorry that you have endured so much and had to go so long without the support you deserve. Hopefully, all that is changing now. You are definitely not broken or alone. Wishing you strength, health and happiness! 💐ShyUnicorn

@masongator you had so much taken from you and you have every right to grieve for those things. You also have every right to not let them hurt you. “…you don't deserve to hurt me without consequences ever again” This is one of the single most powerful things I have ever read. Thank you! I need to remember this. You deserve to grieve and heal in whatever way feels right to you. They deserve nothing, except to be shown the door. Sitting with you🪷

@bart27830 I’m so sorry. I wish there was a way to defuse it before the explosion. 😔 Sitting with you.

But I wanted to let you know that I still hear you. I'm sorry. I'm trying. Thank you for being a piece that never went away. This touches my heart in such a profound way. Thank you for saying this and continuing to try. sitting with you

@rabbitprotectsme you might not need to try … or at least not yet. For now, just keep listening and learning more about her. It will help you identify her strengths and weaknesses, all while establishing a healthy bond. Once that is in place, and you have listened to her, I think your efforts will be more productive. I hope that makes sense. Daisy, it is lovely to meet you. 🌼

Sitting with you and Silas❤️

Exactly what I was thinking! Lucy’s words don’t define you as a violent person. My post about having rage coming out of every pore of my body did not define me as a violent person. I never even took the time to explain that I’m not. I guess I just figured that you know I’m not violent, the way I know that you aren’t violent. We are all more than the sum of our parts. Lucy, I thought you took the floor perfectly. You were bold and honest, and I respect that. I share your view, that these abusers are monsters disguised as people. They hurt us in every way and if you want to torture the

Hi mermaidfairy, Your determination is a wonderful thing! Hopefully, this space will provide you with the support and encourage you need, should your determination ever need a boost. I changed careers and went back to school, albeit virtually, at 47. I was terrified about how different it would be, until I realized that everything that made school different this time around, was also making it easier this time around. So I learned that ‘different’ isn’t always bad. It can also be really good. The same could be said for finding a new therapist. If your current one is not respecting y

I am sorry that the storm rages inside you too. But together, I am confident we can eventually rise above it. ❤️

You know me so well @rabbitprotectsme. I’m so blessed to have people like you in my life. Thank you for sharing the baby goat! We can trade it back and forth❤️

Hi @angelsliveon I am sorry you experienced so much but I’m glad you’re here now. Your story will be heard. I hope that being able to finally share it will lift some of the weight you have had to carry. 💐 ShyUnicorn

I think you’re right … I have been teetering on the edge of total overwhelm. Survival mode had to take over… and, yes, it felt like total numbness. I feel so much better now that I understand what was at work there. Thank you, dearest Plum❤️

Thank you @PlumSundae. I’ve never made an attempt at poetry before but this just sort of unfolded on its own last Wednesday night. Then, I felt like I sat in silence, with the truth, for days. There was no sound or emotions. Only a void. I know I went about my typical routines, but I can’t specifically remember. Have you experienced that sort of thing? If so, do you have a name for it? Today, the heaviness lifted and I realized I missed everyone here so much. Thank you for being here❤️