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  1. masongator

    I don't want to do anything except sleep. That's all I've been able to do except for work, mostly. Everything hurts too much.

    1. MeBeMary

      MeBeMary

      Sitting with you. Safe hugs, if ok. :console: 

    2. ~*chelsea*~

      ~*chelsea*~

      Stay strong; you've got this. 

  2. masongator

    Sometimes I just want to know what the people in my life think it is that gives them right to take everything, even my safety, from me with no questions asked, no consequences. Today is one of those days.

    1. Finchy

      Finchy

      I absolutely get you. You're not alone, mason. I'm sorry for what you've been through. Sitting with you! <3 

  3. masongator

    Sorry if I don't always respond to replies or take awhile to get to them. I'm not ignoring you, I promise. It doesn't give me a lot of anxiety to post but it does to reply back, even if it's the most loving reply possible. I'm still working on engaging with other people about my trauma.

    1. rabbitprotectsme

      rabbitprotectsme

      I believe this is a place where we can take all the time we need. :purple: Be kind to yourself and engage at whatever pace feels safe enough.

  4. masongator

    Finally found friends I regularly spend time with who I feel comfortable with telling I'm an SA survivor. I feel so loved.

    1. MeBeMary

      MeBeMary

      :clap2:

      I'm so glad you have friends who have earned your trust, and you are comfortable to share with them. In my book, allowing yourself to trust equals bravery, which is how I see you. :throb:  

    2. Emphy

      Emphy

      :cheering:

  5. masongator

    At this point I'd rather just be in pain. I'm so so tired and scared of constantly going numb to everything and shutting myself down.

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    2. Jaylore

      Jaylore

      Just wanna say I understand this feeling and you're not alone. <3 

    3. masongator

      masongator

      @Jaylorethank you for being so empathetic. :hug:

    4. WannaMoveOn

      WannaMoveOn

      Sometimes, we crave to feel something, at all, rather than losing the control altogether. Like our nervous system just spacing out, while we cannot do anything about it. My body did this daily for years. 

  6. masongator

    The blogging feature on here has been surprisingly calming. It's like journaling, but openly to people who support you. Idk man I just appreciate it bc writing those entries has felt weirdly nice.

    1. MeBeMary

      MeBeMary

      I'm so glad you are finding a way to express yourself and share on your terms. We all have different outlets...I'm glad you are liking this feature we have.

      Safe hugs to you, if ok. :hug:

       

  7. masongator

    I feel disgusting and contaminated in a way that will never come clean. 

    1. MeBeMary

      MeBeMary

      It's totally undeserved. Disgusting is the one who hurt you.

      Sitting with you. Safe hugs, if ok. :console: 

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