crazyputer

I'm driving into town right now so I'm there early in the morning so I can be on the standby list to see a doctor & nurse. It appears if you don't have a fixed address you can't register at a doctor therefore you can only have a visitors appointment and there's no vistor appointments for 12 days. So get there park in the carpark overnight and eat cold food as I won't have enough power to cook food.

I don't have access to any pain medication but I've driven 180km today towards the town and a medical facility. Also now I'm in phone coverage so I've been trying to get an appointment tomorrow with any medical facility. I've never injured myself since I was released from the hospital 45 years ago. So all the pain I have now can only be related to what I received in my abusive childhood. I'll let everyone know after I've been through the medical examinations. It seems to be hard to get into see a doctor if you have no fixed address.

Thanks. I'm unsure where to start. I'm trying to get to a more social lifestyle but it extremely scary.

The nearest town to me right now is 240km. My electric 4wd motorhome only has enough battery charge to do 80km then need 12hr of sun to recharge. If I wait another 2 days I can make it to the town. I want to goto town because I'm in constant pain in my neck and back. The pain has been slowly progressing down my back from my neck to my hips. I know my back and neck were beaten by my abuser so I'm thinking it's because I wasn't treated when it happened my abuser wouldn't allow any treatment.

I really don't know how to make friends or even how to interact with people. I've found being alone has been easier but I think I need some medical help now.

I'm feeling very lonely and seriously alone. Everyone in my close and extended family has been either murdered, committed suicide, died in wars or a few have died of old age the rarest form of death in my family. Because I've isolated myself I have no friends as well.

My abuse stopped 45 years ago but I'm still feeling bad. I've realized that the pain of my years of abuse doesn't go away regardless of how much time has passed. In fact the physiological trauma keeps getting harder to deal with and now the old physical injuries have turned into very painful osteoarthritis. Plus now the nightmares and visons overtake my mind almost constantly. This makes it almost impossible to work or live with others. I'm unsure of my next steps but I'm committed to change. I'm completely alone no friends or family so my next steps I have to make by myself. I live alone