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@systemsb I loved 90s music growing up, I used to read all about Kurt Cobain and think he was the most interesting person ever. Thank you very much, I really enjoy posting here so far :]

You should! It's not as hard as it seems at first, you just need to give your fingers a bit to build some muscle memory x]

I used to play guitar and sing, nothing that would get me on the radio, but always fun around a camp fire lol Same goes for you! I'm never far and always happy to chat :]

Thank you, very much! I'm glad you agree! I love that I'm starting to see "Emo Nights" pop up all over the place now, but I know 13 year old me would call them all posers Still, I'd love to put my bangs over my eye and go sing karaoke badly one of these days

@WannaMoveOn Exactly! I could have written this in a word document that never went anywhere, and maybe that would have been helpful, but being able to post it somewhere where people will actually read it (or at least might lol) makes it somehow feel more significant. I have a quote on my Share Your Story post that captures the idea pretty well. It was a quote from a user on a different forum "I understand it’s partly about journaling your thoughts but it’s also about being witnessed in your pain and I think that’s an important part of healing" As cheesy as it seems, it's totally righ

You guys are pretty great at rolling out the welcome wagon :] I really appreciate all of this support right out of the gate! I've honestly been obsessively journaling my experience, trying to take it from the emotional clouds of abstract thoughts floating around my head and organize it into real words and phrases; something tangible that I can look at. It makes me feel both sick and exhilarated Thank you guys again for working so hard to provide this type of space :]

@MeBeMary Thank you very much :] I wish the psychological community had your understanding! I'm hoping I can help as much as be helped, I'm happy to be here

I know, and I agree. I just have a very complicated relationship with verbiage. Even "trauma" has always felt like it didn't fit. I had a counselor argue with me about this, telling me constantly "Call it what it is", but I've always felt like a fraud calling it "rape", "assault", "abuse". I understand it is inherently those things by definition, but there is a lot of complexities surrounding my experience that makes those kind of "not my truth", if that makes sense. I feel more comfortable with the labels like unhealthy, inappropriate, toxic. It's not trying to lessen my experience, more abou

Hello, I'm brand new here. Actually, I'm brand new to these types of forums in general. I recently joined a different forum after failing to correctly register here, but decided to try this again after noticing the banner about the registration issues :] Second time's the charm, in this case. I'm 32 years old, or "29 for the forth time", as I like to say. I enjoy writing, mid-2000s emo music, and being secretly a pretty good dancer. I struggle to call myself a "survivor" for the same reason it took me so long to try to reach out and find a place in the community. My story isn't one o