EnoughSilence

I am afraid of all the unknowns and to actually heal and process all of this that has been in my mind and body for most of my life. I am also very afraid of the implications and the pain and hurt caused to my family too, to my wife. Not knowing what was the problem or why I was not “improving” on my therapy all this time in some areas and now we know but it is all too painful and full of shame and guilt and anger, all of this inside of me. thank for you the welcoming, this is the first time ever I have wrote or reached out on this pain ever in my life, but I do know that I want to

Hello, I am 40 year old male who sufferred sexual abuse as a kid more than once. I finally had the courage and pain to speak up. It has affected my marriage and I dont know where I stand at the moment. For the first time I spoke out loud about my abuse to my wife and therapist this week! My marriage is probably beyond repair due to my trauma and sexual issues, I am also at the moment without a job, not close to family in a different city and country. I am getting ready to talk it all the way through for the first time ever on my next session on Monday and my mind is going crazy. th