Hi, Steele_moss. I'm truly sorry that you had to live such horrible experience. If you allow me, I would love to hold your hand virtually. I'm not sure if this can be of help for my experience is that I was SA when I was a child by my father & as an adult by an ex-boyfriend. However, I feel I can relate for last year in January it felt like it was all happening again the present.One of the things that has helped me is doing breathing exercises morning, afternoon and night as well as grounding exercises where I touch, see, hear things to help me come back to the present when something trigg