I've been here reading for awhile and feel like it's time for me to post and say hello to everyone.
Im in my fourties and after decades of compartmentalizing and keeping secrets and pretending my life was manageable, everything cracked open and Ive been existing in crisis mode for some time now. I'm finally fed up of living in fear and darkness.
Seeing how similar my emotions and reactions are to so many others here already makes me feel less like a freak and a monster. I want to be here to find support from people who know what its like. I also hope to offer the kind of understan