I'm new here, hoping everyone is well. I've always glossed over forums like this but never had the to courage to sign up and speak of my experiences. I was also scared of the big what if my abuser were to come across these forums and some how recognise me and get some sort of sick satisfaction out of the pain he inflicted on me as child over all those years. I guess that's the overthinker in me working overtime. Since the past week I have been feeling particularly lost. I'm sinking and breaking and feel like I'm fading away. Normally I can climb out of feeling like this and dust myself off but