Hello @Hurting18, welcome dear, you're in the right place. I'm sorry, for your trauma and bring hope to your broken π. You're among people who have experienced pain such as yours and can say, yes, I've been there but not there anymore. I had to be broken in order to grow and flourish. Sometimes, our blessings come in disguise. At least, that's been my experience. I know, this is hard to conceive, right now, but don't give up before the miracles happen. Once again, WELCOME aboard and RELAX because you're among supportive friends.