Welcome to AS, Lise. I haven't read any manga or watched anime in ages, but I still love the culture and the art. I'm a big video game player. Anyhoo, I'm so sorry for what you're going through still. I can relate, as I still live with my abuser (sibling), and do not know how to get out of the situation. While my abuse doesn't happen in the same was as growing up...he's still abusive in other ways.
Sorry I rambled too much about me! I hope that you find a lot of help here. There's so many supportive and kind people in this community. You are not alone.
-Finchy