Hello, new here. I was sexually abused as a child and was in a couple of unhealthy sexual relationships during adolescence/early 20s. I was recently sexually assaulted - I think? It was a case of ambiguous consent, but it didn't feel very good at all. I felt very numb immediately afterwards, then ashamed/disgusted/sick. I've been having some flashbacks and struggling to process all my thoughts/emotions. I told some friends and family about it, but they don't seem to understand how it made me feel and I'm not very good at explaining. They laughed about it and told me to move on (not maliciously