AlexAlex

Just thoughts... feeling lonely. Don't know of it's my fault or my partner's. Maybe we're just incompatible. He works all the time I know. Im at home since covid. But i feel: - unloved - unseen - uninteresting - unattractive ... so many uns!!!!!! So what AM I? - caring (too caring) - insecure - accommodating (too accommodating??) - white - drunk - sad - pissed off!!!!!!!!! - lonely!!! - almost at the end of my God damn rope!!!

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I've been going along to get along for too long. I need to stop gritting my teeth through sex. I need to say no when I'm screaming inside instead of going through the motions. I feel like if I say anything to stop anything, I'll be left alone, because I'll be worth nothing as a partner. The shame is unbearable. I would like to think I've moved on, but deep down I still genuinely feel like my worth is purely sexual. Like depriving my partner is a cardinal sin and it is my job to please a man even when I feel sick to my stomach. Even when i already feel like throwing up, i ne