Hi All,
As is always the case with me, in the beginning of the relationship i am very sexual, but after a few months I lose interest and it becomes more of a obligation than an intimate moment i would like to share with my partner. This has been the case with all of my past relationships. (I am also quite promiscuous when i'm not in a relationship). I have been trying to understand why i do this for going on 18 years... And i've hated myself for this behavior. Especially because i 'can't' control it.
The thing is, I know that i was sexually abused by my cousin when i was 4 or 5,