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This part of Maya is 5. She holds a lot of confusion and feelings. I’m angry with 5 year old maya for not stopping him. Bad I know but I can’t help it. I’m so angry with her, which is awful. Perhaps 5 year old maya will feel better one day. She’s on her therapists couch still eating sweets and in emergency foster care. She thinks daddy will come but he won’t because T has locked the door. She’s in pain, and not ready to talk yet. She feels a little mute. what would she say? ‘I’m tired, I’m hurting, have I been good now?’

5 year old maya, I’m sorry we don’t have any answers. I’m sorry the abuse didn’t stop after this first time. I wished that our T rescuing you was real too. I’m sorry for being angry at you, I just don’t know how to handle the shame. I’ll do my best to not agree with you that the best option is to wish you never lived after 5. I get it for why you don’t want to be here.

Welcome!!!! It’s a safe place I hope you feel the compassion and care you need.

Hello and welcome!!!! You are in such a wonderful, safe space, it saved me. We’re here for you ❤️

I had these wanna, for a very long time. They can be a little scary, but they do go with treatment eventually ❤️

Hello Nicki and welcome I also had non epileptic seizures due to my trauma and was also mis diagnoSed with epilepsy. I have not had a seizure now for 19 years following a few years of treatment. Your very welcome to inbox me if you would like to chat

Very weirdly, I’ve just seen my T in the park- we live in the same village. As I had handed over my little self to her I’m the session this week I was thinking about her more than usual this weekend (I don’t tend to between sessions much). I was secretly hoping to bump into her, was even looking at people thinking is that her. And then there she was! She smiled and I smiled back I was on my bike with my daughter. Wonder if it’s a sign? A reminder that little me is being taken care of. it’s very strange, that the week I finally tell her out loud some of my csa story and hand over litt

Welcome to aftersilence! I am sorry for whatever brought you here. Remember though it was not deserved, and what you do deserve is lovely kind people like us!

I wish I had the courage to report you when you were alive.

FUCK you, you grooming child molesting twatty excuse of a father

You made me think I’m a black sheep to keep me quiet

I am not the black sheep

I was never broken. You are