Sarah,
I understand completely. I was in counseling - severed ties with my stepfather and have been really good for almost 10 years. Never allowing myself to be vulnerable though - keep my emotions tightly held - but in the scope of things doing really well. Coping well. My career has done well. I am respected in my field.
But then something happened - a huge trigger - and I feel stuck again.
How could I have let this happen again???? But the truth is I didn't "let" it happen. This reminds me that there is more work to do - perhaps it's time to work on the "coping too well part".