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@MeBeMary This is exactly how it feels, like I get so far and then I end up going ten steps back. Thank you for the kind words.

@JJJ thank you for responding, I just don’t know if it’s even worth telling anyone for these exact reasons. It does make me feel better to know I’m not the only one, though I’m really sorry that you went through what you did. This just really isn’t easy.

Thanks for responding, and same here I don’t think I can say it out loud so hopefully this is easier.

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Thanks for responding, I am working with a therapist. I have been for a little over s year now and I really like them but i guess I needed something a bit more. They recommended I join a group or community like this and online seemed a little less scary than in real life.

Hi there. I can’t believe I actually signed up for this. I feel like I don’t belong anywhere, like I am terribly alone. My situations happened so long ago that it feels like they might not even count but yet here I am. I live a very charmed life, I’m successful (in terms of what I deem success anyway) I’m happily married and I’m fine... at least that’s what i tell myself. I just have this awful dark stain on my life that I tried to bury but it came back up and now I’m finally dealing with it. Dealing with tons of shame and guilt and paranoia that I never addressed. It hasn’t been easy but reac