Aliss

There is nothing wrong with you, something wrong happened to you. It's very different. It's common to have mixed feelings and it can be very confusing. You could try writing down all of your different feelings about him, sometimes it helps clarify things. It's ok to feel affection for someone and also be angry at that person for what they've done to us. It just makes you human. Don't hesitate to reach out if you need help.

Thank you everyone for your kind replies and warm welcome! I look forward to getting to know you all.

Hello everyone, I'm a PhD student and I'm turning 26 in a few days. I don't have many hobbies (work is pretty much my whole life), but I love cats and meditation. I decided to join this forum because I really struggle with telling people what has happened to me and I was hoping this would be a step in the right direction. I feel very isolated because I can't bring myself to tell anyone (except my T), and it made me realize how lonely I am. I hesitated to create an account because I feel like my abuse was probably not as bad as what most people here experienced, but I know I t