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Poppy_

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  1. Hi, @halflife - Welcome to After Silence! I'm so sorry to hear of what's happened to you. It was certainly NOT your fault. I was also drunk during the times of my assaults and I know that it wasn't my fault, either. You should be allowed to be drunk with friends without the fear of being taken advantage of. I'm so sorry that you were violated and your trust was broken, and I'm also sorry that you aren't receiving the support you need from your wife. That's not helpful at all. Just know that I support you and I'm here to remind you that this was not your fault. If you ever need to t
  2. Hi, @Lillysurvivor - Welcome to After Silence! I'm so sorry to hear of the trauma you've endured. I know how lonely and isolating it can feel after something like this happens. I want you to know that you are certainly not alone as there are many people here that have been where you are and understand where you're coming from. If you should need anything at all, feel free to shoot me a message. Even if it's just to chat about the weather and feel less alone Hope you're healing okay during your recovery! Wishing you the best, Poppy
  3. Hi, @SecondChild - Welcome to After Silence! I hope you're finding your way around here okay. If you need anything, let me know! Best wishes, Poppy
  4. It’s hard knowing that literally no one wants you around. 

    1. mini.finch

      mini.finch

      It might not help...but please know that WE want you around. ❤️ I'm sorry that you feel unwanted in other spaces, however. You deserve to be loved and appreciated and wanted. :comfort:

    2. Field8

      Field8

      I want you around 💜

  5. Hi, @SmilingThroughIt - Welcome to After Silence! I'm glad you were able to find an online community in lieu of an in person one. I know it's different, but I'm hoping we can still help and make a difference in your life. I know this community has been an absolute life saver for me! If you need anything, feel free to reach out to me any time Wishing you the best, Poppy
  6. Poppy_

    One Wild Ride

    Good news – I’m back! Last time I really blogged, I was about to embark on a new journey as I would be attending a trauma retreat. I did promise daily diary entries to post after I finished but the truth is, I was so exhausted from all the work I was doing that I had no energy to write when I got home at the end of each day. I will, however, go over some of the highlights and give a brief description of how each day went. The retreat was a total of five days long. On the first day, we did paperwork and went over a LOT of information on trauma and how it affects the brain. They use a
  7. Hi, @Ready4help21 - Welcome to After Silence! I'm sorry you seem to be hurting so much right now. I know it's never easy to move past something like this. I think reaching out to this community was a great idea to help you begin your healing journey and to find that peace you are searching for. This community, while not filled with professionals, is full of wonderful caring people from all different walks of life that can offer their experiences to you. You will find a lot of sub-forums here that might be able to point you in the direction of what you're looking for. If you have an
  8. Just wanted to share that I am over 90 DAYS clean from self-harm! This is a HUGE victory for me! :) 

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    2. Capulet

      Capulet

      Congratulations, @Poppy_, so proud of you!!! 💕

    3. Field8

      Field8

      That is awesome!!! You ROCK 😃

    4. Poppy_

      Poppy_

      Thank you all for the support. It means so much to me! :throb:

  9. Poppy_

    Heya

    It's no bother! I'll message you and see if I can help
  10. Poppy_

    Heya

    Hi, @jazz101 - Welcome to After Silence! I know the forum can be a little tricky, but I hope you're finding your way around okay! If you need any help with anything, just let me know! Again, welcome I'm glad you found us! Best, Poppy
  11. Hi, @nocturnalpixie - Welcome to After Silence! I'm glad you found this community. I hope you're finding your way well around here! I know I'm a little late to your introduction, but I've been swamped! Hope you're doing well If you should need anything or you just need someone to talk to, feel free to message me any time I'm here for the long-haul! Wishing you the best on your journey, Poppy
  12. Hi, @Irisdescent_fly - Welcome to After Silence! I am so glad you decided to make your first post here and jump into this community! I think writing a letter to your younger self is a great idea. I recently went to a trauma retreat and that was the first time I ever wrote a letter to my younger self. It was hard and very emotional, but also very cathartic and healing. I, too, like to write! I have a blog here on the site and it has been a fantastic outlet for me. You can always look into that if it's something you're interested in! Anyway, I hope you're finding your place well here
  13. Hi, @Noell2288 - Welcome to After Silence! I am glad you decided to take this leap to share your story. I know it can be a very daunting experience, but know that you have come to a great place to start This community is so supportive and encouraging and I hope you will find your place here quickly. If you ever need anything or have questions, please reach out to me any time! I'm just a message away Wishing you the best, Poppy
  14. @LuluKlu - Welcome to After Silence! I'm so glad you're here I hope you're finding everything okay! If you need any help or need someone to talk to, feel free to message me any time! You're not alone Wishing you all the best, Poppy
  15. I love you even if you don’t love me back. 

    1. Rachal1

      Rachal1

      Hope you are ok ❤️

  16. Hi, @Lostforsolong - Welcome to After Silence! I'm glad you found us I know sharing your story can be difficult, but this community is full of people that will listen and support you in whatever you decide to share here. If you need anything at all, I'm just a quick message away! Feel free to shoot me a message any time. Again, welcome! Best wishes, Poppy
  17. I find myself obsessed with a lot of things. With blood, with hurt, with the thin lines of pain streaming across my body. But with you? No. I am not obsessed. Even though I can't breathe when you're not around and the sun doesn't shine as bright when you're gone. The birds don't sing and my heart feels heavy in your absence. Music doesn't make sense and words don't rhyme, the sky isn't blue and my heart isn't mine when you're not here. Obsessed? No. I am not obsessed. My brain thinks about things constantly. About the way your eyes squint when you laugh. The way your smile radiates
  18. ***The following post has a trigger warning for self harm. Though based on factual events, I am currently 75 days clean from self harm. Please take caution when reading this as it is very graphic and detailed.*** One cut. It's not that deep. The sting is there, the blood trickles, the metal gleams in the light. I think to myself, 'what have I done?', but it's too late to go back now. I press on. The second cut is a bit deeper. There's more blood this time. It bubbles up in dots across the line where I tore my flesh apart. It hurts, but I can't feel anything else.
  19. Hi, @Nc0430 - Welcome to After Silence! I'm sorry you're struggling right now with that person contacting you. I know that's very difficult to deal with. I'm hoping that by being here, you will find support for all of the memories and flashbacks you're dealing with. Sometimes it helps me just to post and let that stuff out instead of holding it in. And when you post here, you will also get feedback from people that understand and support you. Post when you feel comfortable, though. There's no pressure here. If you need anything, I'm just a quick message away any time! Please reach
  20. Hi, @Uhane2 - Welcome to After Silence! This is also the first forum I joined after my SA and I never thought something like this would happen to me either. I understand how sometimes you can feel fine and then the flashbacks hit out of nowhere and send you into a spiral. I can tell you that this is one of the most supportive and uplifting communities I have ever been a part of! I hope that you will find that healing and peace here as well. Just know that you are not on this journey alone and we support you all the way! I'm here if you ever need someone to talk to or have questions
  21. Hi, @Saphira - Welcome to After Silence! I hope you're finding your place well here I know it's hard to face what you've been through, I just want you to know that you're not alone and we all support you here! You don't have to do this by yourself. Something kind of funny... my sister used to have a cat named Saphira! So I feel connected to you already! If you need anything, I'm one message away. Don't hesitate to reach out with questions or for support. Wishing you the best, Poppy
  22. I'm already so done with today. Hurting myself is starting to sound like a good idea. 

    1. mini.finch

      mini.finch

      Sitting with you, Poppy. ❤️ I'm sorry the day has been rough. Please do your best not to hurt yourself, though. I know the urges can be really strong and hard to resist...but you're even stronger than those urges. I wish you all the best and hope that things improve. :console:

  23. Hi, @Sam3456 - Welcome to After Silence! I know it's hard knowing what to say, especially in your first post. But I am so happy you took that first step in making a post! That's no easy task. I also know how difficult it is to have abuse in your life that you didn't even realize was abuse until later - that happened to me too. I just want you to know that you're not alone and I do understand where you're coming from. We already have quite a bit in common just from what you posted If you need someone to talk to or have questions, my inbox is always open. Send me a message any time!
  24. Hi, @LillieBelle - Welcome to After Silence! I'm sorry you have reason to be here, but I hope we are able to help you on your journey towards healing. I am here if you need anything at all! Feel free to browse the forums and post when you feel ready. There's absolutely no pressure! Wishing you the best, Poppy
  25. Hi, @Lrr1 - Welcome to After Silence! I'm glad you've decided to join this community I know making your first post can be intimidating, so good job on taking that first step! If you need anything, feel free to reach out to me any time! Wishing you all the best, Poppy
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