Yea, Its been such a long time and I guess Im not sure what I can do to feel safe. I can sleep as long as my bf is home albeit not really well. I still have nightmares constantly of stabbing someone who is assaulting me. My doors and windows are always locked. I feel like I live in a fortress more or less. However criminals always seem to find a way to get in when they really want to. It happened to me decades ago, so it could happen now. I have tried sleeping pills both prescription and OTC but they just serve to make me more tired than I already was. I have blocked out so many memories from