Hello Dasi, You sound wonderfully on top of your game and in control of your cognitive processing. Amazing. I have endless respect for the work you have put in to heal. With where I am right, I'm not in the best head space, I am drawing sadness out of success. I mean does this ever end? Will it ever just be gone or okay? It feels like a lifetime of always coping. It makes me lose hope sometimes. It just seems like coming from these kinds of backgrounds is such a disadvantage. Spend a lifetime trying to undo the damage from unfit parents, eek