SurvivorBornAgain

Hello Grace7, I was terrified about this site just because it DID mean that I was going to find more people with similar issues and I don't wish anyone to go through any of the stuff I experienced, and unfortunately, there are these people. On the flip side, I feel fortunate to find others similar because everyone with me so here at AS has been amazing in welcoming me and helping me with different things. Feel free to keep in touch. I wish all us positive things.

AA, I appreciate all of your insight and believe it all comes from a good place. Thank for being honest with me. And thank you for replying to all the things so far. I had my 2nd session w/ my "clinician" today. She prefers not to be call a "therapist" because of what it spells out in 2 words. I've never had a female "clinician," they have always been men. By choice and luckiness when needed. I've explained to them in the past it's because I have more mommy issues than I do daddy issues. Anyway, she's really great and I'm not switching and I'm looking forward to my new journey in 1:1

I can say that I relate w/ you, but am not in the same place any longer, but I did go through what you are and then I broke and pretty much lost everything!! Don't mean to be more negative. Honestly, today is my first time really participating in blogs, posts, comments, chats. I hope that because you're here now, you don't have to get worse like I did, and now trying to survive a whole new way. But I do wish you strength and courage to do what you need to for you to get the help you need b/c if you do get some help, you may be able to start over and begin a healthier lifestyle. Take care,

I can relate. I hate that either of us can, but I'm glad I'm seeing stuff that I am relating to because now I feel like I'm going to be able to get a lot of what I'm looking for here. I'm sorry all this is controlling you and I hate that feeling myself. What type of help have you received besides here? hope to keep in touch!

I'm new pretty much today. Am I even supposed to be here? If no, I apologize. If so, then why would it be good for me to be here?

I did all of what you said and became a complete loner. And now I'm terrified of ever having a relationship again b/c I just don't trust anyone including myself on how to choose someone. I feel like I always choose the one that could do something terrible to me or they're just attracted to me. I lost everything including my mind, but have recently sought inpatient treatment which lasted a little more than a week, and now I'm in outpatient therapy and having even that much of a schedule on my own is difficult. I don't even know who I am or what I want even though I did get help and I know I

So, my first blog. Above you will see all the different things I relate to or feel right now. I'm 40 and even my therapists have told me I should write a book, so maybe this is how I'll go about it. My story of Surviving began the day I was born (story there). And is continuing today. I have been sexually violated by at least 5 different men and not at the same time, but over time. I feel cursed. I was an advocate for a long time and proud to be a survivor and then it happened again and sense then I've been in a downward spiral. Repression, Acting out, Acting self-destructive, Complete

hello patricia. i just finished my profile, i think. and this is the first forum i found. any suggestions on navigation through this site?