AliciaRaven

Starting in the middle, with no sense of where I am going and little in the way of a coherent past... 2 years ago I started therapy at a rape crisis centre. 3 terrible counsellors and one breakdown later, I am now formally diagnosed with discociative identity disorder and I have found an expert psychotherapist to work with. Things are finally starting to heal, I think. This is going to be a long road. What I am going to write will probably sound crazy and unbelievable. I don't really mind if nobody ever reads it, or believes it, but I think it will help my own healing process to have som

There is no rush, just take it slowly. This is a really safe place, with lots of lovely and supportive people. But it can feel overwhelming at first.

You are very welcome here, and I hope that being a part of this community will help you to eventually put down this heavy burden you've been carrying for so long. Take it gently, you deserve to heal and to be heard.

Thank you NorskyCoutney, janepp and angelic, for making me feel welcome here

Thank you notgivingup and reglois :)

Thank you fallenstar, for replying to my post. I was a bit scared nobody would reply. I never thought to ask my counsellor if I could call her. She texted me a few weeks ago, after I had a difficult session, to say I had done really well. But I wasn't sure if it was ok to reply or not. Maybe I will ask her.

I'm glad to have found this place. It's been hard, carrying it all. I tried to deal with it in the past but I could never really face it, so I found ways to live with it until now. My daughter just had her 6th birthday. She is the same age as I was when I was first abused. I think that is why it is different now. It's all at the front of my mind and I feel like I have to talk about it. I'm ready now, and it feels like I've opened the floodgates and it is all rushing up and sometimes its so overwhelming. I started counselling at a rape crisis centre. Its so helpful, but the time between appoin