I can totally relate to you Tinamariee. I am 18 years old and a freshman in college. I was abused growing up. I met a guy I really like here and the other night we were getting intimate and all of a sudden I just started crying and I couldn't stop. He was very understanding and nice. He stopped immediately. Afterwards, I felt really bad, even though he kept telling me that it was okay and he understood. I think that it's okay to not be ready to be intimate. Especially, if you haven't worked through all of your trauma. I don't know what college you go to, but at my college there is free counsel