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I'm glad I could help. I know how it feels to feel alone when it comes to trying to heal.

You found the right place. You will not be judged here.

Never look for other people to make you happy. Only you can make yourself happy. I don't know if you're in a relationship or not but if you're not, I would stay away from a relationship and focus on healing and improving. You deserve happiness. Stay strong and be patient.

That's very helpful and creative advice.

You are not alone. That's important to remember. Also, remember that you are the normal one. You were hurt by sick people (your mother and father). You can be the one who breaks the cycle of abuse. Think about how important that alone makes you. Remember that you are a survivor. You won. Feel free to talk to me if you need someone to talk to.

Thank you for sharing your experience. My childhood was very similar to yours. I hope this site will help you remember that you're not alone.

Be proud of yourself for opening up and admitting what happened. Your mother may never accept or admit what happened so forget about waiting for her to help you. From now on try to focus on helping yourself. That's the most important thing. Once you can open up those memories you can then attempt to stare at them in the face and take control of them. Just stay strong, be patient and know that you're not alone.

Thank you for sharing that. Always remember that you're the normal one when it comes to what happened to you. Also, it takes a lot of strength and trust to tell someone you love about something like that. I would talk more about it with your fiance if he brings it up. He might not be ready to talk about it yet. But it would help you a lot to talk about it with someone you love and trust. Also, I suggest trying to meditate and trying to take control of your memories. You can't change what happened to you but you can change how much your memories can control you.

Never hate yourself. Always remember that the victimizer is the one with the problem. Thanks for introducing yourself.

I don't know what being in an abusive relationship is like but I can relate to the panic attacks and anxiety. You should feel very proud of yourself for being strong enough to leave your abusive relationships. I don't know if you take any medication but I take Zoloft and it has helped me tremendously. Its possible that it could help you too.

Welcome to AS. 5 years may sound like a long time but I'm sure those memories are still fresh. Talking about what happened and taking control of your memories will help you.

My name is Levi. I am 25 years of age and I take 200mg of Zoloft everyday. I've just recently started therapy to help treat and control what happened to me when I was a child. My grandfather molested me and as I am recovering old repressed memories, I believe rape is a better description of what he did to me. I spent a lot of time with my grandparents when I was a child. I trusted them and loved them. I had sexual deviancy issues at a young age. I would try to inappropriately touch my cousins and other non-related kids my age. I also recall a day when I hid in my grandparent's room and touche