Hi I'm new here, but, not new to being a survivor. I was raped 47 years ago by a cousin that was babysitting me. I was 8 and he was 14. It happened a couple of times before I told my Mom. I had been bleeding for a week. She told me not to say anything because it would ruin the family. My Dad would kill him. They visited often, we were left alone. She knew what would happen. She told me it was my fault. Anyway, my family still doesn't know. I am just realizing that all of my relationships are strained because I don't know how to react to normal social life. I was married to a physically abusiv