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Feeling really lost and down today I thought speaking out standing up to evil would sone how free me.....I was wrong ive never felt so alone and down. Beginning to think this was all a mistake ........

Hi I had a look but couldn't see a thread so im going to ask on here. Is anyone else having problems gettin into chat? Every time I click to go in it brings up an error message??

I feel so stupid I shouldnt of fought I should of known better I just dont know what to do.

I can't believe it I stuck with my grandma and I thought he had left went to make lunch and he was there. I tried to fight honestly I did but with a punch I knew he wasnt messing around so I stopped fighting gave in let him do what he wanted then when he had finished he said see I knew that you enjoyed it not much of a fight this time maybe next time you wont fight at all.

I dont know if I can type the hell of a day ive had im torn between writing it down and just keeping it inside. Guilty is one word id put. But the question is was it rape if I just stopped fighting?

So here goes I dont know why im here I dont mean here as in this site but here still living! I was beaten black and blue by the very person who was supposed to be myprotector my father my earliest memory is him Hitting me for something I had done at the time I didnt know what it was he was hitting me with but I knew it hurt I would later find out it was a belt with a 4 inch metal buckle that he would heat up. This was my childhood my sister was never touched so I must of been a bad kid. I hate him but love him at the same time I mean hes my father and I must of deserved it he beat me so bad on

Hi im new to this site and dont know what to do or say? I guess I can just put why im here. I was abused by the man who was supposed to protect me for harm not the one to cause it. My father if I can call him that. My uncle sexual abused me from the age of 4 to 9 I never told my father as I was told he wouldn't believe me and I would get a beating for lying I believed it as I got beat for less. I never really got over my childhood and it showed into my teen years when I was 15 I sexual assaulted would of been rape if a woman hadn't heard me scream.I was told that talking to other victims may h