Hello, new here! Hoping for some guidance. A few years ago I told a couple of my friends about what my sister's (now ex) boyfriend did to me when I about 8 years old (I'm 18 now) but they just shrugged it off like it didn't matter. I don't trust my family enough to talk to them about it. I have since found a lovely guy of my own but I now I feel dirty knowing I've had sex with 2 guys. He stole something important from me, and I'm considering having a hymenoplasty, and saving sex for our honeymoon. A second attempt to get it right, and have a fresh start. I want to be healed emotionally and was