I'm going to try to write here sometimes. Can't promise anything...but I desperately need an outlet, somewhere...somewhere I can get my words, thoughts, feelings, out of me, out into some public space where I can hope maybe they are being read/heard, but not even expecting or wanting a response. I'm just sick of feeling the way I do, constantly struggling, wavering between did something happen, or am I making it all up? I've been struggling with this, fighting this, since I was 15 or so...that's almost 20 years now. And I can't do it anymore. I need a space to get all the contradictory, c