[Hello]

So I know we're not supposed to go into detail about what happened to us here, and don't worry I'm not about to... yet. I joined this site about a week and a half ago, but didn't find time to play around with it until today. What happened to me happened in May, just a little over 3 months ago. I've been going to therapy, but honestly I don't know if it's helping. I guess the hardest part to me dealing with this is that all my CLOSE friends and family are in another state and my fiance is currently deployed in Afghanistan. He doesn't know about what happened yet. I don't want to tell him while he's over there... he needs to focus on staying safe and coming home. I do plan to tell him once he's back, but I haven't figured out at what point and how to just yet. The problem is I'm not sure exactly what happened to me. I was drugged and I know I was assaulted, but raped? I'm not sure. I don't think I was, but every professional I have talked to all say it's possible and that I'll never know... which puts a million other thoughts into my head. The whole thing is just so frustrating. I'm engaged, planning a wedding... how could this happen? I think I'm going crazy. Anyways... I will go into further details in a private, more appropriate forum (once I get access). I guess I'm just hoping to find some support from others who have been there... and maybe find some answers through others and their experiences.