CosmicDancer

Maggielynn, you know they say 50 is the new 30!

Thanks for the warm welcome. I'm not sure what drew me back here right now, as things in my life are more settled and "normal" than in many years. I've been toying with the idea of returning to therapy, but it almost seems like a waste of time at this point. Over the years I've spent MANY, many hours [and a ton of money!] in therapy, but nothing ever made the slightest dent in my dissociation. My depression is well controlled right now via medication, so that's not an issue. It's the DP/DR that I would dearly love to be rid of, but at 42+ years and counting, I've basically accepted that that's

It's taken several years to finally decide to participate here. And I do mean SEVERAL years! From my old registration e-mail, back in 2004, it looks like the site was at dancinginthedarkness.com/ipb/index.php back then. I know I had to re-register at one point, although I can't recall why, and that was in 2011. I'm 59 and I was raped at 17. I got pregnant from it and, thankfully, had a miscarriage. However, the trauma triggered a dissociative disorder which has been chronic ever since. No, I don't have multiple personalities. It's not DID, but depersonalization and derealization. If you're no