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@afterthestorm78 oh gosh wow I feel like I am reading my own thoughts! I’ve buried everything also and now everything is coming back and it won’t stop! It’s too much and I’ve been drinking more. I really have asked is this really better than locking it all up?! But I mean I don’t know. Writing it out has helped. Even though it is so hard to even type his words and then after my husband reading it behind my back I feel truly humiliated to my core! But then relieved that it’s not a huge secret anymore. Nobody has ever known those things about me and now he know it all. It’s so hard to accept!

@afterthestorm78 I’m sorry for what you are dealing with when it comes to your ex that sounds so stressful. I can really relate to you; my trauma is about a decade old and lately has been very hard for me. Too many memories flowing back I’m glad you found this place where you can hopefully realize you aren’t alone and there are people you can talk to now sitting with you sam

@afterthestorm78 hello! I think I just welcomed you on another post; but I’ll do it again: hello and welcome to after silence! I’m sorry to hear you have pains and trauma that brought you here, but now you are not alone with it. We all understand the pain and the bad days. The loooong healing journey. I am so glad you found us we look forward to getting to know you! sam

@afterthestorm78 welcome to after silence also! I am so glad you are here. I know it is all so much. Just take your time we are all here when you are ready! sitting with you guys! sam

@peachyk hello and welcome to after silence. I am really sorry to hear you have trauma that brought you here, but we are glad you have found us. I think you will find support and comfort here. We look forward to getting to know you sam

@yahui hello and welcome to After Silence. I am sorry to hear of the pain and trauma that brought you here, but we are all glad you found us. I hope This site can help you realize you have support and you are not alone in the pain you feel. My name is Samantha I am 28. I am also married, so I may have some marriage advice! I hope you find what you are looking for here Yahui. sam

@lola2020 welcome to after silence! I am sorry for the trauma that brought you here, but I am glad you are here I hope this site can be of some help in your healing journey! sam

@Captain Jigglypuff welcome to the forums! I am sorry you have pain and trauma that brought you here, but we are glad you found us. I hope you can find the comfort you seek here sam

@Bambs welcome! Hope you find comfort here sam

@Lonelygirl13 I understand you fully... it seems next to Impossible to get the support we need when we need it. And because we know how it feels to be in that spot, we are nice to people and always there for them. But in most cases, people are too damn selfish to grant that same respect. I don’t know why... maybe it is too difficult for them to not be consumed with just themselves. I don’t really know. If you need to vent or anything we are here for you sitting with you if okay? sam

@Small•Pot welcome smalls! I am very sorry for whatever trauma/ pain brought you here. It can also be extremely lonely when we isolate ourselves with that pain. I relate to your post because I used to keep my past completely separate from my husband. I never wanted him to know, never wanted him to look at me differently. I don’t know how to speak to him about it either. Even though he found out things, I still can’t speak to him out loud about those things. It’s very difficult. You are not alone in your struggle with this im sitting with you sam

@octavia8 absolutely! I hope this place can bring you comfort while you heal

@octavia8 you are fine to write as little or as much as you’d like! It was nice reading it and getting to know a little about you honestly sam

@octavia8 I am sorry for what happened to you but you have found the right place to be for comfort and people who understand. your interests sound a lot like mine! I look forward to getting to know you here on the forums sam

@Lonelygirl13 welcome to AS. You are not alone in those feelings and struggles. you have found the right place sam

@Bekah26 welcome! I’m sorry you are struggling but I’m glad you found a place full of supportive, helpful people who understand. sam

💔 you aren’t alone in this. sitting with you @khake sam

@eitalianqueen i hope it is ok to comment on your blog: I am so sorry for the pain you feel thank you for sharing, sometimes it helps it hurt less. sitting with you. sending a hug for comfort if ok? sam

@SnowOwl welcome! its nice to meet you. i am sorry for the pain that brought you here; but we look forward to getting to know you. we are here to help each other heal. sam

Hello @eitalianqueen. Welcome to AS! I am sorry for the trauma that brought you here, but we are happy to have you here. We look forward to getting to know you! ps: music is LIFE! sam

@caitlyn. hello and welcome. we look forward to getting to know you. sorry for what brought you here, but this place is full of a lot of supportive, amazing people who will understand your pain. sam

@BeeSting welcome! We look forward to getting to know you. Sorry for the trauma that brought you here, but we are happy to have you with us. sam

@cristina welcome! we look forward to getting to know you sam

@Maya20 welcome to after silence. We are glad you found us and we look forward to getting to know you Nothing that happened was your fault. You ARE a survivor! sam

@littleheartsmile welcome to AS. I think you've stumbled upon a place that can be of much help to you. There are forums here about mental health, inlcuding PTSD info so that may have some advice/ will help you feel less alone in your struggles with your diagnosis. my name is sam and my favorite color is purple