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@Alice24601 oh I am so sorry to hear the things that happened to you something that stuck out to me about your entry was how you don’t know when exactly your memories left you. YES. I am confused right now by this myself with my own memories. It’s strange that there are memories that are repressed but weren’t repressed until a year or two after the actual acts themselves. I am glad you mentioned this because it is definitely confusing thank you so much for sharing with us Alice. I hope you have a peaceful evening after getting some of this out. Sitting with you! sam🖤

@peachycove hello and welcome to the forums we are glad you are here! sam🖤

@Dolphinryder hello and welcome to After Silence. I am so sorry for the pain that brought you looking for this site, but we are all so glad you’ve found us. You are not alone in this. We are all here to help each other I hope this site can bring you the comfort and company you seek. sam🖤

@Silver13 Hello and welcome to After Silence. I am so sorry to hear what those people did to you I know it can feel so lonely in this process, but you are not alone. We are so glad you found us here. sending you support and a safe hug if ok? sam🖤

You are so welcome

@zenguy Hello and welcome to After Silence. I am so sorry to hear the trauma you have experienced. You have come to a very supportive place full of people who can understand you By reading your post I have actually realized something about my own behavior: This. Wow. Thank you for your honesty I think we have a lot in common actually. I hope this place can be a place of comfort for you while you heal from your trauma sam🖤

@Sadielynn411 hello and welcome to After Silence I am so sorry to hear you have recent trauma that beings you here, but we are so glad you found us. you aren’t alone in this sam🖤

If you look at the top of the message box when you reply, there is a little smiley face and if you click on that it’ll drop a menu full of little smileys; there are all kinds of things but another shortcut is typing :black heart: and a menu should automatically pop up where you can choose the black heart. I hope this helps! sam 🖤

@NiqBel03 I am so sorry for all the pain you are dealing with. Everything is definitely heightened during this pandemic and isolation. Also, welcome to After Silence. It is heartbreaking that you have a reason to be here, but we are so glad you found us. You are not alone in this. Thank you for reaching out here, that is a huge step sitting with you if okay? sam 🖤

@Rileyyy Hello and welcome to After Silence we are so glad you have found us. sam 🖤

@boxergal30 I am so sorry for all you have been through with your ex. If you need someone to talk to I am here for you. How are you doing ? sam🖤

@Lily227 Hello, and welcome to After Silence. I am so sorry to hear you have pain that brings you here, but we are so happy that you have found us. I know it takes a lot to reach out for help and talk about these things, but this is a great step in the healing process. Take your time, we are all here for you whenever you need support sam 🖤

Oh I definitely understand you there ! I believe we can be triggered by a lot of things around us without even realizing it, especially when our memories are buried. I am still recovering memories myself because of this very thing! When we bury things so deeply, there can be small things (songs, an object, a sound, a smell, etc) that can take us back to those memories without us entirely remembering them . And that can be a very scary thing to deal with. Have you tried writing out the sensations/ memories/ thoughts that come to you in those moments? I would suggest trying to do so if you thin

@Samonne hello and welcome to After Silence! I am so sorry for what brings you here, but we are so glad you have found us. You are not alone sam🖤

@Shefloats hello and welcome to after silence. You are NOT crazy. Our minds can be tricky. Burying things that are so traumatic that they come back in fragments at random times. Maybe something you heard, smelled, saw brought a fragment of a memory back to you in those moments that added to your “rape box”. I hope I’m making sense but this has happened to me. I am currently still adding to my own box in my mind... memories are flooding back to me. I just wanted you to know you aren’t alone. Our brains don’t just make traumatic scenarios out of nothing. Your pain is valid. You are valid. You

@JME welcome to after silence that’s a beautiful picture, thank you for sharing sam🖤

@Anonymous26 welcome to after silence sam🖤

@Chelsea30 welcome to after silence sam🖤

@boxergal30 it is okay! We understand. You don’t have to feel pressured to share anything at all. We are here for you. I understand this can all be so overwhelming. There is no pressure on you at all for anything here I hope you know that and it helps you feel more comfortable. ps:I can relate. I can’t talk to my husband either sitting with you if okay? sam🖤

@Lovelylady hello and welcome to After Silence! I am sorry you have reasons to be here, but we are so glad you found us you are not alone! sam🖤

@psh I am so sorry I missed this! Welcome to After Silence. I am so glad you found us here I am sorry you have pain that brings you here, but I think you will fine comfort here knowing you are not alone with everything you have been through. sam🖤

@Quirka Hello and Welcome! We are so glad you have found us I am happy to hear you have such a wonderful support system in real life. That is huge for anyone in their healing journey! "Healing" is something us survivors deal with forever. Sexual trauma is not something you can fully heal from I don't think. The wounds can become easier to tend to over time, but they will always be there. I hope this site can bring you comfort in knowing there are many here who understand your struggles with this trauma. sam 🖤