beautifulmask

Hello everyone, i found this forum and decided to register for it. I am at the moment struggling to live with my past, there is a lot going on on me and my friends and family don´t really understand and i can´t explain what it feels like. My cousin abused me over a longer period, i don´t know how long, my memories are still not that clear. In fact I couldn´t remember for a long time, and even now that i know i often think my mind is playing tricks on me and makes this up. He committed suicide... so he is not alive anymore, that is another point i don´t know how to take it, is it good that he