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Hey Blondie, hi there. Nice to see a familiar person. Fallenstar, Reglois and Struggling, thank you all for your welcome. Going to look into the grief and loss section now. Not having a good day

Thank you Mary. One thing I have learned is this is a journey that is for life. While it may not always be at the front of our minds, when triggered by something, it will come back up. Maybe not as hard and devastating as the previous time, but hard enough to seek out help. I am not sure what I am looking for this time around. I guess just a place that I feel safe, and to see how far I have come.

Thank you Patricia. I must admit it has been an extremely hard past eight months. I am very lucky though in that I have an extremely good psychologist that I have been working with.

Hi there I first joined AS in 2009. Since then so much has happened in my life. I met a lady in the later part of that year on here, who I fell in love with and eventually moved countries in 2012 to be with her. Sadly she passed away last year after being diagnosed with a terminal illness. At her funeral her father triggered my PTSD and I have been dealing with the aftermath of that, mixed in with my grieving for her since then. The other day for some reason I needed to come back here and read some of my prior posts along with those of friends I knew here at the time. This space

Hi there Welcome to AS. From what I read, sounds like you are from NZ as well. Me too. I really hope you find what you need here. Mon

Briararosa - I totally agree with you - it is all the more confusing to sort out now. Actually its hard as hell. How do you deal with hate and anger when all that was shown to you was love, gentleness and kindness. I was on a course last week where one of the facilitators read out an article where they had interviewed 20 men in prision who were offenders of csa. They asked them if they threatened their victims and most said there was no need to as they groomed them well from an early age. In my case I was groomed from at least 3 years old but maybe a bit before. Its no wonder I thought

Thank you Karen - yes it has been disapointing not hearing anything back. Makes one feel it is less.

Hi hun Another kiwi here - north island Hope you find what you are looking for hunni This is a fantastic site Kia Kaha Mon

Tulip Thank you for returning I for one have missed you heaps Mon

Welcome Kikimoon I am sure that you will find the support that you are looking for here. This is a wonderful caring place. Looking forward to seeing you around the board Mon

Welcome to AS Wolf I too love your tatoo. You must be a strong person to go public, I applaud you. Hope you find what you are looking for here at AS Looking forward to getting to know you Mon

SerenAur Welcome to AS I too am a 45 year old survivor of childhood sexual abuse, and like you this is the second time it has come up for me. I hope you find what you are looking for here. Everyone is so caring and non judgemental. It is a real safe haven to talk, if and when you want. Looking forward to getting to know you better Mon

Ravva Welcome to AS. Yes there is good support here for both good and bad days. Hope you find it as helpful here as I have Mon

Poto Hi from an All Black fan from NZ. good to have you on board hun Looking forward to getting to know you Mon

NEgirl Welcome to AS Sorry for what you went through I hope you find what you are looking for on this board. You should find everyone very caring and non judgemental. I have All the best