There was a time when i was 12, I was sitting on the floor of my bedroom wishing that I was grown up.

I was closing my eyes so tight as if I was trying to force a memory out of my head.

I don't know what I was doing, but every now and again I get the same feeling.

And i do the same stupid thing where I close my eyes really tight and try and force the feeling out of my throat, or memory out of my head again.

It works for a second, long enough to change my thought patterns onto something else.