Why is it when I talk about what happened, I get angry? I get angry at people who didn't have anything to do with what happened to me. I especially get angry with my friend. Is it because he is male? Is it because I want to push him away? Is it because I think it's ok? I really don't know. I just know that what he's hear hurts him. He feels so bad for me but can't do anything about it. Why does he make me feel better even when I'm mean to him?? Why do I still feel so alone even though he knows everything? Sometimes I wish he was here to hold me tell me that everything will be better. I just wish I could forget and just move on.