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Daisy

rabbitprotectsme

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"If she even could hear me, what am I supposed to say? 'I see you, I love you, you're safe now?' What good would that do? She thinks she's happy to be in pain.

Like if I said 'I see you...'"

"Do you like what you see?"

"I love you..."

"Aww, I love you too! [lie]"

"... You're safe now."

"I know that, silly! There's no safer place to be than in his bed, where he's going to violate me again and remind me I'm wanted."

Until I finished writing this example of why I can't communicate with her, I didn't even realize I just had.

She could hear me. She's been trying to answer all along. I was the one who couldn't hear her.

Once I could hear her, she gave her name freely and readily. It's not that she trusts me already, I don't think. It's more like... no trust was required. She's prepared to give all of herself to complete strangers, without a care in the world what they might do or say. Because she doesn't value what she's giving up. She wants them to value it for her. "La la la, nothing matters! I don't matter, they don't matter, and it's wonderful!"

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ShyUnicorn
16 minutes ago, rabbitprotectsme said:

I will try to teach their truth to her.

@rabbitprotectsme you might not need to try … or at least not yet. For now, just keep listening and learning more about her. It will help you identify her strengths and weaknesses, all while establishing a healthy bond. Once that is in place, and you have listened to her, I think your efforts will be more productive. 
I hope that makes sense. 

Daisy, it is lovely to meet you. 🌼

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49 minutes ago, PlumSundae said:

That's okay, @rabbitprotectsme... she'll learn it as you show her. No need to try, you'll do it naturally... you're already doing it by being there for her.

 

29 minutes ago, ShyUnicorn said:

@rabbitprotectsme you might not need to try … or at least not yet. For now, just keep listening and learning more about her. It will help you identify her strengths and weaknesses, all while establishing a healthy bond. Once that is in place, and you have listened to her, I think your efforts will be more productive. 
I hope that makes sense. 

Daisy, it is lovely to meet you. 🌼

 

Yes, you're right. Thank you both for reminding me. :purple: All I have to do is stay willing to listen, and the rest will come naturally. I keep forgetting that. I wasn't sure it would be enough with Alice, because of the sheer amount of despair she holds--and yet, at least so far, it's worked for her. I didn't think it would be enough with Lucy, because she hated me at first--and yet so far, all she needed was to see it working for Alice. And now I'm struggling to believe it will be enough with Daisy, because she seems to have no desire to be able to trust me or anyone else--because she's lost trust in trust itself, and now favors a false kind of love, one not built on a foundation of trust. But now I'm beginning to see, no matter how impossible it seems at first for them to trust me, I don't need to prove myself worthy of it--or rather, I do, but remaining willing to listen to them might well be the only step in that process, and is certainly the first.

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