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bart27830

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Together with my therapist we think I'm ready to go back to EMDR. My  attitude and expectations have shifted. Previously I looked at it as fixing a long broken bone. So basically break it again and put back in order. It was a task. One that can be failed, and which I've been failing. Despite going round and round in my memories I couldn't find any emotions regarding them.

This time I'm finally free of this success failure mentality. I will take one last look behind and leave them in the past. If I happen to feel something regarding them then good, but nothing will happen if I don't. 

There are also many memories of time past my trauma, which have never been touched. In this time I suffered a lot and retraumatized myself multiple times due to my inability to cope and function in the world. 

I want this attempt to be a farewell to my past trauma. I hope I won't need to dig it every again.

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mermaidfairy

Rooting for you! You got this ! Whatever time it takes , it's necessary , for your healing journey. I am barely staring mine (lol) and learning about EDMR and I am scared but , hopeful at the same time.

We're here for you and you are not alone

 

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bart27830

Thank you @mermaidfairy. After first proper session I literally felt my brain in my skull. It can be intense sometimes. I hope your therapy will turn out well and your brain won't feel like a bag of rocks afterwards.

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