It would be nice to have a chance to sit down and deal with my current issues without more shit piling on top of it. I know it’s life but this whole journey is becoming to much again. It’s like walking down a path of broken glass, your feet are bleeding and all cut up and you turn down another path only to find out there’s more glass on the road. You don’t have any other way to go so you have to keep going forward even though there’s glass on the road and if you go back there’s still gonna be glass on the road! 
 

To add to the bullshit I now might be a diabetic. I’m experiencing much of the symptoms since I was hospitalized on the 16th.  I’ve missed quite a chunk of work the last two weeks because of it. 

Depression has reared its ugly head. I’m on meds for it but today it’s not helping. 

I feel like I’m headed for another mental breakdown. For the first time in a while I didn’t want to get out of bed today.  I’m physically drained, emotionally exhausted and mentally...I just want to shut down again. 
 

I have fucking had it....😓😖

😪Maybe a shower, some tea and a good book to relax for a little while but first I need to meditate. 
 

I really am just so frustrated. Hopefully tomorrow is better.