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I felt more cared for my strangers

Panther

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My disabilities and birth defects made me a stressful child and i was the youngest of three. Children are not little adults. Feeding your child and taking them to the doctor doesn't earn you "mother of the century" awards. I feel so hurt and ignored and like an object around you, mom.  All my life. I shouldn't feel more safe and loved by my doctors and teachers and occupational therapists. So many times I wanted them to take me home instead. I don't believe you or anyone else when you say you loved me. The logic i followed for Tyler was the same logic i applied to you. That love meant doing whatever this person wanted at the expense of your own feelings. My friends have said you take responsibilty for all my successes. You only bring up my struggles when you think I'm not trying hard enough. Well guess what. I am not defective. I deserve love and protection regardless of b what i "give back." There's no-one better to be than me.

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behindthesehazeleyes

I just wanted to say I read this and you are so right. You are not defective. Your feelings matter. You matter and you definitely deserve love and protection. Sending safe hugs.

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