Just another bad day

There is nothing wrong with you, but wrong has befallen you. That IS NOT your fault, so you are right there, and NEVER let ANYONE tell you different. You may feel you should have done something, but it wouldn't have happened if you had a choice. NO ONE ever has a choice in these situations. Not while it's going on, but you have ALL the power after because you SURVIVED. And don't go planning life on knowing how to feel because at this point, unfortunately you have to go with the flow of feeling.

So when ya feel numb, sad, mad, angry, confused, or all in one, just know that there is nothing wrong with that. It is unfortunately part of the healing process. You are going to feel (if you don't already) like giving up, and like the end goal is too far to the finish, but try to be patient with yourself. Know that you didn't get yourself into this situation, but you are strong enough to and will get yourself out.

Keep ya head up -Tony

p.s. sorry if this sounded like "text book advice"