I have my very first therapy appt Friday.

Their still stonewalling me on talking to my mom.

So between that, worrying my brother going to file a fake APS report against us. Being removed from the messenger group for update about mom. Trying too not stress my wife out about calling APS on my brother.

The memories, thoughts and suspicions of what was done to me as a child that keep floating up.

The depression and anxiety of everything that going on I am beginning to doubt I can hold everything together till Friday.

There a limit to even how much I can take. And based on how far I fell Sunday I am way past that limit.