It is doubtful that I am ready to do this, but I'm going to begin looking into taking classes online to become a a counselor.

I feel that if I wait until I recover all the memories of what happened to me as a child it'll never get done. I'm not 100% sure if I'll ever recover all the memories

I also believe that taking the courses will help me.

On a side note, my wife's getting a mommy weekend. Which means she gets a weekend off from our child and gets to go have some fun. And she promises me she will either get the ringer on her phone fixed or get a new phone this weekend. Because of what has happened over the course of our marriage with her mental illness and are mentally handicapped child if I can't get a hold of her I have a tendency to go to a very black place. And because I am trying to recover my childhood memories that place has gotten a lot darker.