I mentioned that I got a tent for the last Christmas with E. So that  got me thinking. I don't remember Christmases or birthdays or any special events. I know we had them. 

I remember I got the tent for Christmas, I just didn't remember the day. I have a picture of me opening presents when I was about 6 or 7. I just didn't remember. I don't remember birthdays. I know we celebrated it I just don't remember.

I also been thinking about behaviors linked to things from my childhood. I am uncomfortable when people do me favors or eating other peoples food.

I almost invariably turn down food when when people offer. Even at company meetings, or parties. I think I am worried that there is a price attached. That might just be me not trusting people or it could be a price was paid when I was younger and I just don't remember.

I remember E being all " this is my house, this is my food, you're mine you owe me" I wonder how I paid that debt?