I remember being fascinated by porn as a child...my grandmother walked in on me watching it once and she said to turn it off when mom and dad get home or I'll get in trouble. She was a really mean old lady and she made me sleep with her at night I hated it so much. I shared a bed with her and my cousin Frank. Same age but oddly enough I was never attracted to him and we never did anything that was sexual. He is the closest thing to a brother I had. We don't have that relationship anymore since of last year when I called the cops on our grandmother Rebecca. I thought she was abusing my child but I really think that I was triggered and started to see things that were similar to my childhood. Anyways she moved out of my house and into his. That was December 15. 2015. I did it bc Summer was showing signs of abuse and I was acting super vigilante. After her being gone for a long time I started to get better the flashbacks stopped I believe because she was so verbally abusive towards me as a child that when I would see her it would remind me of much abuse I went thru as a child and I'd be damned if it were to happen to my child. I hate myself...or when I'd see my daughter with her I saw me as a child hating my life bc she was so horrible to me. I just didn't want my kid to suffer like I did....so I don't know if she abused her or not. Everyone says she didn't and that I was having PTSD moment...it doesn't matter anyways she died in September and now my family hates me.especially my brother.Frank.
Those are assumptions. I didn't even attend the funeral out of shame.